If tomorrow never comes...

I would be a sad ghost, with no one to protect or haunt. I would not tell you all the things I never did, because you are just not worth it. I would just live this memoir and that would be all you got left from me:

Did you have tried to be good in everything? Did you ever meant for people to remember you? To love you? Have you ever kissed a person with the intention of changing her life? Have you ever admired someone so much that you believe in everything she believes? Did you make an effort to be different and to have the ability to inspire people? Have you got a planet of your own? How many people visited it? Did any lived there? Did you always gave your best?

My answer:

I always had the intention to be the best in what I was doing, the best student, the best girlfriend, the best friend, the best everything....Some of them I've failed, some not...but I always give everything I got, even if I don't say so, to what I commit to and that always leaves some kind of impression.

I never meant for people to remember me. Most of them I don't want to. The other ones, I want them to be around me so they don't have to remember me.

Everybody with whom I had a relationship above 60 in a scale of 100, yes. I did meant to be loved. Loved in a way that many people don't know how or don't understand. If tomorrow never comes I would never know...

Most of people I kissed I intended to make them fall in love for me. Sometimes it was quite easy and they didn't put much of a challenge or spice the thing, and so I ended up to be bored most of the time. Guess nowdays they prefer to taste as many lips as they can and not remember them. What can I do?

I've never admired any one from the opposite sex while I was having a relathionship. I did learn to admire some people after we broke up and let their interests and tastes find space into my personality. But they will never know that, because I will never show them my "The things I never told you" letters.

I try to have personality in everything. I'm a mix and a reflection of my life experiences. My person is not just about the way I look, the way I behave and my convictions. All these things are mutable. I'm a very complex person and I have many passions in my life. I'm a mix, and I think that's different. I know so many people I can describe with only one word...
I just want to inspire people who inspire me and who want to get inspired by me.

I live in another planet. A much more interesting one by the way. No one has ever been there, not ever saw a glimpse of it. That might mean that I'm a loner.

There's always more that you can do! Too much is never enough! But just because you are willing to give your best doesn't mean you'll get results. That's the way it is. Get used to it.

Dedicated to all the people who: wander around and don't fight for what they really want;
who are afraid to be different; who think they're different but deep down are shallow and dumb; who never wanted to change somebody's life; and to all that ones that are obessed about their things and deny themselves the pleasure of sharing, learning and living.

R.